Another step

If I take a step further, will it lead to a happy ending or another broken heart?

Happy Birthday TO ASHVIN

Ash was making a wish and cut the cake =)

Aimuni and Azmiza

Tharshini, Nisha,Me and Zefen (behind)

Nisha and Me

Presilia aka Mrs Steven and I

Nisha, Steven and I

Sorry guys for the wrong sequence of the pictures. I just lazy want to rearrange them. We went out to have a birthday celebration for Ashvin, one of my good friends in class. So, we had a birthday surprise for her and before we departed to Amigo for dinner. She was really shocked as she thought me and Ze Fen were having a fight. Instead, we just put up a drama to bluff her out. Who said law students can't act? XD

Hopefully she enjoy her birthday. Thanks to Steven, Presilia, Zefen, Azmiza, Aimuni, Nisha, Tharshini for all the memories together. =)

A Stranger

24th August 2011- It was like 8 months we broke up. Few months we never really talk. I admitted that I was avoiding, I'm running away from you. Maybe for a lot of people, break up is just nothing, and why should I make a big hoo-haa here? Yeap, it was really nothing, after months I used to watch so many movies, dramas to convince myself that break up is just a NOTHING. In fact, not really. How can it be a nothing to me? A person that I loved most besides my family, turned against me and told me our world is over? It can't be a nothing. Maybe today I already used to walk alone, maybe I already used to walk under the rain without your protection, does it mean I'm really fine with it?

Today, we talked, sitting side by side. So near yet so far. Who will ever expected both lovers to be strangers like us? I'm not sure whether you regret what you have decided, scarified me for freedom. Why would you be so concern to have the haagen danz that I have promised to treat? Just merely fight for the right to eat because I promise to treat? I never afraid of the whole world turns against me, because I knew you are there by my side. But, when you turned your back against me, even I have whole world standing beside me, there is just something empty. I admitted that you are very important to me, but after all this dramas, I only realize that being together is just my dream not ours.

One day when you're with a new girlfriend, I know my heart will be broken. But who cares? I will just take it as "expected" or "norm". I never expect anybody will understand how I feel, because I'm tired of repeating how I feel. One day, if you met someone you really love, and she left you, you will know how that feel. The worse thing is not that I feel like dying without you, is that I have to live without you, with hopes, with smiles. Convincing myself that there is a better one waiting for you one day, in fact, there is never a better one, because I always put you as the best.

After so many days, we knew we are not going to be like before, the days we used to laugh and cry together. So, I will not ask you again to come back, and I will not expect to care. So just stay out of my life, pretend that you never care, pass by like a stranger. Why would you care to stay in my circle of life if you have no feeling for me? I only ask for one thing, just let me go and leave me alone because your concern and your smile make my heart broken once and once again, and I really don't know how long I can hold myself to be not broke down and cry.

Maybe after all, I'm just not as strong as everybody thinks. Maybe I just can't stop loving you even I know how asshole you can be to me.

Grey's Anatomy- Another Profession

I always wonder how is a life of a doctor. Grey's Anatomy is one of my favorite English drama series, with touching story lines which show the reality of life. I always think surgeons are the most beautiful persons in this world, of course only those who really treat lives passionately and not as tool of money. Being a surgeon needs real courage, and faith. I wish to be a doctor some times before I choose to get into legal field, reason? I have blood phobia and I feel extreme pain on my body when I need to cut a person's skin. So, instead of not to have bring miserables to people's life, I choose not to be a surgeon. Before I watch Grey's Anatomy, I thought 'doctor' and 'surgeon' are no differences. But there are differences. And for me, I think there are vast differences.  Surgeons, who received emergency calls have a really hectic life. Personally I think they are really cool as how many people can see all the bodies with blood, wounds, injuries and etc every single day? 

Eric Dane as Mark in Grey's Anatomy is one of favorite character, of course with his handsome face and his sexy body^^

Patrick Dempsey as Derek Shepherd in Grey's Anatomy. He is my favorite surgeon. Compare to Eric Dane, I will vote for Patrick, because he looks really cool when opening people's brain. XD

 

The Year to be Remember

I have been long enough out of social network. Finally I have some pictures snapped with some of my friends during the very last semester in university life. One thing I learnt, is that, never let a person dominant in your life. When I was in relationship, I forgot to look around, missing all the fun that happened beside me.

It is the last year in University life, should have enjoy a little bit more beside all the lecture notes, statutes and assignments. Nobody says law is easy to study. Life in MMU is not hectic expect during the assignment peak and mid term period. Life as a law student, sometimes can be crazy, mixing around with some crazy friends. However, to maintain good results in Law School, really need extra effort. I have been trying to improve myself on the EQ level so that I won't get frustrated easily, complain about difficulties and troubles in life. Stress in studies, is part of a student's life, what more as a law student. "Successful People never complaint", that's my housemate told me.

I shall have more puzzles of life at the very last year. =)